It has not been the most wonderful week, Internet.
I work with someone who unabashedly hates me. Mostly I can ignore this, since I have no real need to communicate with this person ever, but sometimes compartmentalizing is exhausting, and sometimes this person is even crazier than usual and reminds me just how much she hates me. It does not make for a pleasant working environment.
(Mostly, I try not to care, because it's ridiculous. I remind myself that I don't need to have everyone like me. But the relentlessness of it all is uncomfortable, to say the least. And maybe I'm more like Monica on Friends than I even realized and have this stupid unconscious need for everyone to like me. If it's true, this is mostly definitely a grievous personality flaw and I need to fix it so I can continue to Not Give A Shit.)
On top of that, I have an unteachable class. At least, I can't teach them. They cancel out the three classes I really enjoy and make me want to quit my job most days of the week. They make my stomach hurt on Sunday nights. They make me doubt everything I thought I knew about myself, about what I thought I was good at. They make me really, really not want to go to work. And this week has been really, really bad.
I am very, very tired.
Dear Internet, if you wanted to try to cheer me up, I would not object. Send me pictures of kittens or transcripts of interviews with my favorite authors or something.
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BRING ON THE KITTENS, I SAY.
It really is difficult to feel sad and discouraged while looking at pictures of kittens.
I may know a bit about having a class that makes you want to run crying. Here's my current "screw you, I'm awesome, you can't get me down" song:
http://youtu.be/Xn676-fLq7I
Dance away, my friend.
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